LogicsHere wrote: ↑Sat Jan 25, 2020 8:59 amHello all.
Cloudy here today with rain expected. Won't complain because there is no threat of the white stuff again for at least a week.
Things with my sister are so hard right now. I thought seriously about going down, but since we are on the phone so many times a day, I thought it best to hold onto the money to use as a day-to-day expense arises that she might have a problem paying, i.e. car insurance, cable, etc.
She is so depressed and overwhelmed. She went to see him yesterday and said he looks so bad. They have him drugged because something was also triggered where he was pinching people and even accidentally kicked someone in the head. They also have his hands tied as they are afraid he'll rip out the IV. I feel so bad for her and sorry for myself because there really isn't much I can say or do to make her feel better because it isn't going to change the situation. When I planned for my budget back in December, I took the two hospitalizations as a sign of trouble and put in the added expense to help cover her for a while. It's not that I'm truly happy about it because her financial position was created by themselves, but I can't let her find herself homeless.
Other than that, I'm doing OK, but could be better. Wish I could feel a little happier but her situation has been draining me emotionally as well because I have no one to talk to and want to scream after listening to her for the umpteenth time complaining about the same things over and over. And as I said, if I'm home and see that it is her calling I can't not pick up the phone. I can't do that to her.
Finally, between phone calls, got to work a bit on one of my web sites. It felt really good. Would also like to find the time to pull out my accordion and start "learning" it again. Learning to read the "bass notes" of the music is the more difficult part. That's not to say that I still can't play some of it, because I can. I think it would be fun.
I didn't feel like eating much last night after listening to my sister all day so I had a bowl of cereal with a banana. Hopefully today I will find myself in the mood to make some spaghetti with meatballs or one of my mini meatloafs which is basically 1 very large meatball LOL.
Well, going to go for now. Have a wonderful day.
Logics, talk to us. ((((hugs )))) This is incredibly draining for you, you are acting in the mother role not the sister. She is very lucky to have you ( and not just for cash ) but for the emotional support you are offering.
Very dull, cold and grey here. We have DS so BOOYAH on that score. He arrived with an open sore on his back which is no good for my blood pressure.
As an aside BEFORE having a disabled child I never used foul language ( just thought I would drop that one in )
Bad news re his referral at hospital. A longer wait time than I feel is reasonable. It also brought back memories of the GAME of " prove you need X THEN we'll help " of days of yore. Sometimes I do not have the energy. I do , but I also have The Rage so he will be seen sooner but I am BLOODY ANNOYED. For the record being in pain at the level he is means his challenging behaviour is at an extremely high level, meaning his entire LIFE is being curtailed as he cannot go out as his behaviours are so erratic.
Lost nearly 10 pounds so hurrah for sensible eating. I made one gym trip. I am not paying £40 a month to sweat. I can go one a week as a FREE guest with someone else so I'll do that. And walk the dog more.
Work is ridiculous. We were told we weren't understaffed , in fact I would say we were CHIDED that we weren't uerstaffed. Yesterday several fights broke out........
For seasonal décor I spent a huge £1.40 on some pots of tete a tete mini daffodils and repotted them into four vintage china tea-cups, I saw the suggestion on a blog. The dresser has been redone , its pretty, lots of cut glass and vintage china in pastels and some 1930s pottery in soft greens .
Saw 1917. Its okay, wait til its on TV.
The new look forum has MORE pop ups and screen bouncing around so no improvement IMO.
Housework and laundry done. DH has spent the day in the garden cutting back stuff and emptying the greenhouse.
Frustrated trying to hand our charity shop bags to an actual charity shop. This is good stuff BTW that they could actually sell. I 'll try one more time then I will dump it all, I just want it gone.
No exciting menus. We do both like to cook and fiddle in the kitchen so we are eating well, never eaten so much fruit and veg Today we are having our first "diet " dessert.......simple enough to make and will USE IT UP that low fat custard I bought for trifles.
Janet sorry for your hassle x